My Life on the Z List

Angels

There are angels everywhere. They are always pulling for you even when you’re not pulling for yourself. They are thinking of you when you are not thinking of yourself. You never know when or where these angels will pop up, but they always do just in time to help protect you from the storm. Sometimes you don’t even know these angels, yet they are there pulling for you all the same. Be kind to everyone, because you never know when you’ll need to be someone elses angel.

Why so young?

I received a message the other day from my Mini Me back in TN and in this message he tells me he’s in love with a very nice girl and that he’s getting married. HE’S ONLY 19!!! Why are kids today compelled to have sex so young and then get pregnant and then get married all before they can legally drink? I know I’m only 21, but hey even I think that I’m too young to get married. There’s just so much out there that I want to see before I become a mom and wife. I just wish he’d use his head more. Then again that could be my fault for smacking the back of it too much. That’s it, I just gave him brain damage. Maybe he’ll snap out of it before it’s too late. Who knows? I can only hope.

Hello again.

It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything on this blogger and I’m hoping to change that. There’s just too many people on Myspace that will take anything you write the wrong way, whether it’s about them or not. So, from now on i will be doing my real writing here.

First, what is the deal with people who read things posted on profiles and then automatically thinking it’s about them? And then they try to get the truth out of you by threats. Now I’m sorry, but I don’t respond well to threats, and if you do try to threaten me you’re really not getting the truth from me. Not that you even had a chance before. I don’t write and tell. I like to leave them guessing, especially if it’s going to bother them for a long time.

Now, I’m not a bitch, I’m just tired of being wronged by everyone. I’m tired of people taking advantage of me and trying to bend me to their every whim. So, I’m getting payback. I’m just doing it in the most conniving manner.

John Lennon

I’ve had Beatles on the brain for a few days now and so I did a little research on John Lennon. He is by far the most interesting entertainer I’ve ever heard of. To have been able to sit down and have one conversation with him would be, to me, one of the greatest things in the world. Just to get a glimpse of what he was thinking just to see if I could understand his thinking. His death was certainly one of saddest things to ever happen to modern music.

The Date has been set

I will be moving out to California on March 18, 2011. That gives me exactly 2 years from today to get everything ready to go and figure out where I’m going. I want to live in Santa Cruz, and I will. So wish me luck or don’t. I’ll either miss you or I won’t. I’ll be living my dream, what about you?

She fired back…

My sister finally sent me a reply to my last message. And I was right, she did end up making me angry in return. She is now upset with me because I cut my hair. I know this is her wedding, but she can’t stop me from cutting my own hair. And she never mentioned not cutting my hair only not coloring my hair. Now she is making me feel like just dropping out of her wedding altogether. She lives in a completely different world than me. A place where she seems to think that she can make people hide who they are. Even if it is for just one day.

To me it looks like this, she is ashamed, though she wouldn’t admit it, that I have visible tattoos. The cause of her shame is that she is from the “preppy” table at school. Tattoos are bad, facial peircings are bad. She sees me as someone that she would look her nose down, but hates that she does because I am her sister. She also seems to think that her fiance’s family would look down at her if one of her bridesmaids had visible tattoos. Which they didn’t seem to mind them at the engagement party. Weird, huh? So I guess i will just never understand.

Alone, bored, armed, and dangerous.

Adam and Wade went up to Daytona for a Bike Week gig which leaves me here at home by myself with only my thoughts to break the silence. I do wish my thoughts would stop though, because I need to send a message to my sister about her wedding I can only see the reaction going one way. Down. I’m not going to purposely upset her but I know that’s waht’s going to end up happening. Although, there is a chance that she’ll end up making me mad too. There is only one way to find out, send the message and wait. This is going to be a long wait.

Working all the time.

Last night I found out that my next day off is next Saturday. My last day off was on Monday. Yeah I’m not going to be doing anything strenuous next Saturday at all! I will be sitting on my butt reading or doing something of pure enjoyment! Maybe Friday night I’ll go up to the bar and sing Karaoke. Or maybe not. I never know what I’m going to do until that night. Me making plans is like a blind man trying to drive, it just doesn’t work. So why bother? The only downside I can see to working all the time is the fact that every time I’m at work I have this amazing ability to cut my fingers a lot. No gushing blood pr anything like that, but those little thin cuts that feel like a paper cut. My fingers are covered in them! And I have no clue how they got there! I just look down and happen to notice that I am bleeding. Oh well. It comes with the territory of being accident prone. Which I am. Hopefully tonight I won’t.